What's going on?

I couldn't post anything during this spring break because I was so busy, I had to continue my private lessons which I've started taking them in summer and have to finish them in these days.
I will give an overview of which is now being happened in our life:
1. Spring break is over. today is the last day and I really want to make a lot of stuff in this last day so as not to feel sad or something like that, the annoying inner feeling.
2. This break is awful, it can't be any worse. I have done nothing, I only went out to my grandpa's house and my aunt's house and to one of our relative's house and that's it. It is not enough for me because I am seeking for something new, special and spectacular but any way I couldn't find it.
3. It's all about demonstration which is taking a part in the Arab World these days. I don't know what to say about that but do demonstrators know what they are really want? Do they help each other?
Will they promise not to steal the banks if something happened?
I think we've got enough of killing and death and the situation was getting better and than this happened. Some sides say that the army shot the people in the street and also a number of men were killed.Anyway we'll be waiting for what going to happen next, hope it's a good thing for people first.

P.S: Just to let you know I changed the title of the blog and this is the new one to make sure you get it: http://illuminationfromiraq.blogspot.com/

I can't even start

It is so hard to start writing a new post, or maybe this is how I feel because I haven't written anything in a long time.

Some of the people I know keep telling me that they feel hopeful when they see me and especially my cousin (M) she is amazing , that's right I keep telling them not to give up and to fight till the end however the end will be, because I believe that we can find happiness everywhere we go even that some times I stop feeling the same way I used to and especially in these days! Everything is not just like I want and I know I have to sacrifice for others and maybe for nothing and yet, that makes us lose confidence.

The only thing I know is that I need something super cool to change me, something makes me laugh from the deepest spot of my heart and soul even though I'll keep searching about anything will change my mood because I'm not afraid of the challenge and of course, I can't give up in the middle of the road. This reminds me of Josh Groban's song and it does cheers me up :)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

P.S: I want to change the tamplet of the blog page but I don't have and options
Any suggestions?