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This year is the worst year according to what happened. Big events happened Suddenly and suddenly we lost a very very dear person. His passing changed my life because he was and he'll still like a brother to me. He had blood cancer and he passed after ten years of treatment. When I get bored he was the first person I think about to call. We shared every thing even the little details. When the cancer returned I just was like: "Oh my God! He'll be recovered" All the family shocked when the doctors in Jordan said: His body stooped responding with the chemotherapy. They didn't know what to do, it was so hard times to all of us and in Dec. 2009, he passed in hospital. My father called me in the school and said he will come and take me and I thought that he went back home. I waited for him with a deep feeling there washing wrong. I convinced every thing will be just fine! I didn't know what to do, I was trembling.
days gone.. and days came, and he'll be always alive in my heart and his smile shine on my eyes. Peace be upon him.

To me, it is so hard to write nowadays so I'll do my best to have a good mood and spare time. Pray for me.

I got enough of everything !

Everything has been very wired in the last days, I found my self in a long road with a lot noise, it is just the bad days ever and they didn't come yet! because I'm waiting for something bigger and that will make me dizzy! :(
I can't find time for my self to relax, I'm running even that I am kind of happy but this happiness will run out if I didn't make it last.
I have the lessons for 5 days in the week, list below:

Saturday: 11:00 am to 12:am Chemistry 3:30 pm to 5:00 pm physics
Sunday: 2:00 pm to 4:00 pm English 5:00 pm to 7:00 pm Arabic
Monday: 4:00 pm to 6:00 pm English
Tuesday: Off
Wednesday: 8:00 am to 9:00 am Chemistry 3:30 pm to 5:00 pm physics
Thursday: 2:00 pm to 4:00 pm Mathematics

That was my week all the summer and I admit it, I regretted for having lessons in English, it is just too easy, all what I have to do is just memorize it.

My Mother's uncle died four days ago in US, Pennsylvania of complications of cancer. he really loved to die in Iraq but he went to US to see his son and he didn't come back. Peace be upon him.

and I'll always thank God for his blessing and everything.

Good morning

Hello there ..
I'm just trying to write and publish from Mobile and it works but a little bit pricy!

It is just the beginning

Hello people.. hope you are doing great.

As long as we live, we lose something and then missed it, discover something and then we lose it! When you find your self in a very holy places, that means something more than a feeling! it touches you so deep inside, yet you find a shinning light in the end and find your self there with white wings! That's what a happened to me last summer, when my family stated to think of going to the sacred house of God in Mecca to do The Ummra'a. My parents decided to take me and my brother with them, they asked us to and we couldn't say NO! it is a dream of each Muslim to go there and see the house of Allah, so we agreed however a lot of people told me not to go because I am not old enough to go there, for them; I'd better go to Turkey, They didn't affect on me any way, that was a opportunity and I made use of it and I rally wanted to go even that I haven't imagined my self near to Kaba'a . It was only for 10 days, it wasn't enough to any one but it is better then nothing. whatever I speak about the best ten days, there will be more! What I am going to need then I've got!
If I still alive, next year I do mt best to go after I finish my general exams and finish the high school.
I started the private lessons a month ago, only Arabic and today at 6 PM, I have a lesson in Mathematics in a friend's house.
And we'll receive and meet very dear people next week so the whole family will be busy even so that's cause a headache to me but I think it going to be fun.

I hate SOME PEOPLE !!!

Physics Project

Before the mid-year exams, the teacher of physics wanted from each pupil a project to work on in the vacation. For me, I didn't care too much about this project and in fact, no body dose! we are just doing this to get more of marks! non-profit. The teachers should show more attention for that because maybe there is a brilliant minds just like me! :)
Tomorrow is the school's day (Almotamaizeen's Day) so the teachers are busy with this and some pupils.
My project was chosen as the best of all the projects of other pupils so tomorrow I have to stay beside my project because there is some guests.
And another thing annoyed me very very much. One of the pupils has thrown a stick directly to the face of one of the teachers, it was painful for her and I became very sad for her, she asked us who did this but no body answered! but I still feel guilty for this, not answering means that I am encourage the person who did this and give him space to do more! he should get some punishment and learn some respect. But I decided to tell her who did this because God saw what happened! should I tell or not?

Inner Feeling

I haven't written for a week I think. I tried to write yesterday but I hadn't enough time to complete my post so I canceled it! moreover I have a strange inner feeling that makes me hate my life and people around me sometimes (it's really dose!) so I decided to stop thinking and annoying my self with these silly things because it is doesn't deserve to think about.

Lately, I tried to be positive and keep the smile on my face but I failed! because there is always a reason to make me depress wherever I go, however I tried not to let anything effects me but it is always the opposite!
In school, I always try to treat pupils very kind except some persons who I am really hate for many reasons. Those who I am kind to them, they don't treat me like I do! maybe the don't mean it and maybe they do! Ah.. whatever I don't care anymore!
Exams make everything looks disgusting! I missed a trip to Erbil because of exams.
I have two exams on Sunday, chemistry and mathematics, the teachers didn't agree to abolish one of them, they just keep saying: "You have the whole weekend, not a problem". Could you have a little of mercy in your hearts?! I do hate you.
Everything is becoming so boring and daily routine is killing us!

Good Night

9 April

Seven years passed since the Iraq war and counting. A lot of people were killed, a lot of children lost their parents, a lot of parents lost their children and a lot of people became homeless! they couldn't stay in Iraq anymore, even in Iraq.
Bombed cars became a part of our life, very ordinary thing. 13 bombed cars exploded in Baghdad in two days ONLY! 50 persons were killed but I don't believe it, as one of the channels said.Just Stop Killing People!

From my life side, I still have the FLU! I hate flu, I also became a fan of "I hate flu" page in Facebook. I also decided that I should learn photography because I have some good vision as most people say around me.
I'm thinking a lot about colleges, this is going to KILL me! I should stop thinking till I finish my next year which is senior.
I put a list of thing I am going to do and one of these things is buying a camera for my own after I heard that Sony 14 Mega Pixel costs 150$ only!
I found a book of English Grammar, I also put it on my list To-do stuff. I should at least read 3 units every day.
I wrote down a lot of things in my Mobil but I forget it on my grandpa house today.

In this memory, I hope that Mosul and all Iraq getting better and become more peacefully.

Good Night.

After The Exam

I was talking about the exam yesterday, I hated my self because I studied two days, Friday and Saturday. today was the exam I did well ( I think ) the exam contains 6 questions and answer only five, every question divided into two questions, only one hour, the intelligent who can finish it in one hour.
It was too long, I tried to write anything that I can remember because before the exam I couldn't remember anything. I spent the Arabic lesson in reading chemistry.
after the exam, I wanted something fresh and cold so I bought a lot of Pepsi! it's the best ever.
During this weekend I got flu and always felt tired so I studied as much as I could.

chemistry+Flu+hot weather=DEATH! :)

Hello .. I've been very busy thins week and I'll still busy for two other weeks, of course with the exams. Tomorrow I have a Chemistry exam, all the curricula and I've just finished it two hours ago and I still have some homework to do but I don't want to do it because I'm so tired!

see you later..