I can't even start

It is so hard to start writing a new post, or maybe this is how I feel because I haven't written anything in a long time.

Some of the people I know keep telling me that they feel hopeful when they see me and especially my cousin (M) she is amazing , that's right I keep telling them not to give up and to fight till the end however the end will be, because I believe that we can find happiness everywhere we go even that some times I stop feeling the same way I used to and especially in these days! Everything is not just like I want and I know I have to sacrifice for others and maybe for nothing and yet, that makes us lose confidence.

The only thing I know is that I need something super cool to change me, something makes me laugh from the deepest spot of my heart and soul even though I'll keep searching about anything will change my mood because I'm not afraid of the challenge and of course, I can't give up in the middle of the road. This reminds me of Josh Groban's song and it does cheers me up :)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

P.S: I want to change the tamplet of the blog page but I don't have and options
Any suggestions?